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INDEX

Series Description/Notes 

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Staying True to Self While Surrendering

(New January) 

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(11/04/2008) 

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October 2008

(A Shift in "Higher/Deeper Service) 

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September 2008

(The Illusion of Lacking) 

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Service & Disciplined Action

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Upcoming Discussion Series....

The description thus far:

.....we discussed the topic of the Transition or Difference, as well
as the Diversities of 'submission' to 'servitude'.  (aka: submissive to slave withIn some LifeStyles) This seems to be a topic that many show an interest in and/or are in the process of this "Transformation" at this time in their Path & Evolution. Either speaking
within "The Lifestyle" and/or "Spiritually"....it's really All the Same...it is just the 'label' of it that changes forms
or shifts perception. Either Path leads One to the Transformation of Inner Peace....no matter where One's
'focus of servitude' is aimed. It ends up focused inside of Self....this where we end and begin with "It's All the Same"...
as the focus is that of Love.
    This Duir of Real-Eyezation leads One further down the Rabbit Hole while at the same time expanding One's
Self Awareness to the Infinity held within the 'Blank Page' of Self laying right there in front of "you and 'god' and everyOne."
But this period of the transformation and journey is learning how to 'let go of the tangibles' we are so used to
holding onto....and Trusting the Knowledge you have gained of self and 'Being bound by that' rather. This is
when you are 'purely giving yourself over'....as the Beautiful Gift that it is! It is 'willingly'...it is from YOUR "Source of Love",
it is through "Invisible Bonds" that you are held there....and those "Invisible Bonds" are worth FAR MORE that any 'tangible bond' can ever be. They are the "Bonds of Love & Freedom".

“Staying True to Self While Surrendering”

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**How do we do both?**

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(Part 3 of “The Service Oriented Heart” series)

Written By: Mystic Priestess Lady LiL

To some, surrendering self is an act of weakness and giving in. To those that have experienced surrender, We know differently. We know the strength in surrender, both given and gained. True surrender of self is not only a great gift to give OneSelf, but also a great gift to give anOther or to All or to Your Higher Power/Source/Spirit.

Through Our chosen Path we are given a Labyrinth of obstacles & experiences & walls, along with wins & rewards & times of flight. These create a balanced amount of alchemy to allow us to make a choice at any given time to 'give IN to surrender'. To delve deeper and deeper Into the self to find and seek Our Truth. “The Call of The Wild”....”The Call of The Heart”....”The Song of The Siren”......All that keep us driven to continue trekking our path.

Surrender also is a “Leap of Faith”. It is like a “Blind Following” to “All that is”. How does One do both at the same time? Stay True to Self while surrendering to an “Unknown” or “Un”See-able/INtangible” Entity? Didn't We All arrive here under * some * form of a 'submitted contract'...be it that of God/dess or Self or anOther form? So We've already 'submitted to Be right here/right now'....Naturally the next step would be that of surrendering to Our decision to “Be Here” and quit 'waging war with self'. Surrender the OLD beliefs to the NEW Truth of the Love & Surrender. Do yourSELF a “service” and first surrender to your Love of Self...surrender to YOUR Heart and Hearts desire and everything else will unfold from your heart there-after.

I believe that there are 'stages' that we go through in order to arrive at a place where We are met with surrender, but at different 'levels' or 'areas' of Our Life. This is how we learn of Our Own Truths and what speaks loudest to Our Heart of Hearts...what sings in Our Soul. I Believe these are what gives birth to our greatest struggles also and where it takes a greater amount of strength to achieve surrender....for surrender and the ability of such is to achieve Peace. Peace of Mind, Peace of Heart, Peace of Soul....for each “level of surrender' allows Us to “let go” of that which no longer 'serves the greater good of our surrender'.....which itself is an 'act of surrender'...for we are 'letting go of another piece of self' further shedding Our ego self. Once the Cycle Begins and the Wheel is Turning...it is simply Natures Flow that One is surrendering to and returning to. To Ones Heart of Hearts.....The Center of OneSelf.

This does not mean the end of struggles, but it allows Us to FLOW THROUGH the struggles with a greater inner strength and Self Confidance. We have achieved a closer residancy with Our Heart through our previous 'acts of surrender' and therefor have a Greater Knowledge to use as Our Compass for future experiences unknown. Again proving that through Ones surrender...Greater Truths of Self continue to reveal ThemSelfs TO OneSelf. Never failing at Our Greatest Quest of “To Thine Own Self Be True”.

~In Eternal Peace, Love and Service Of~

~L~

Erotica Comments 

Thots on "Surrender".....

The term 'surrender' re-entered my awareness yesterday. i was watching Oprah and she was covering sexuality in adults and followed a couple through 'sex therapy' where the wife shared that her fantasy was to be Dominated. Well...almost every woman in the audience agreed with her and the therapist also noted that this is the main fantasy of many woman. They even showed the couple then carrying out this 'fantasy date' and did an AWESOME job of the portraying this! It wasn't portrayed as all "Dark & Dirty & Evil"...but in the Light & Positive Energies that this sort of fantasy can bring forth in a relationship. It was OK!! Wow...Progress!!

What i found really interesting is that this was referred to as "Surrender". What those within the D/s Lifestyle would define as the 'submitting'...was termed as 'surrender'. Sooooo...of course this was another 'rabbit hole' for this lil'mind of mine to go 'mining into'. Surrender isn't exactly a new term for me...but i have to admit that it is one that i haven't given much 'deeper' thot to along my Path.

So what does surrender REALLY mean? hhmmm....think first i'll look up the actual 'definition' as writ by "Man-Kind" and start from there....

***transitive verb

1 a: to yield to the power, control, or possession of another upon compulsion or demand <surrendered the fort>

b: to give up completely or agree to forgo especially in favor of another

2 a: to give (oneself) up into the power of another especially as a prisoner

b: to give (oneself) over to something (as an influence)intransitive verb:

to give oneself up into the power of another***

Ok, so yes...this is most definitely a 'lesson' that a 'submissive' within the LifeStyle would first go through...and continue to experience through Ones entire Path...every day...surrendering self....

Surrendering to Whom??

Initially we Believe that we are surrendering to the Dominant. In the beginning those first steps are taken because we are being told that we must and that it is Ok...at times the role playing of being "forced' to surrender...makes the ACT of surrender a bit easier. Truly surrendering OneSelf to the wishes of anOther is NOT easy to 'get the hang of' after one is brainwashed into believing that 'the giving of OneSelf' is such a bad, evil, negative and foolish desire. So as we see....there are many way with which we have 'surrendered' and are not or were not 'aware of it'...it is a 'veiled illusion'....a mere/mirror illusion.

As my mind meanders back to when i first began this specific path that i am on, with this specific focus i have had....i can see where my focus began WAY 'outside of mySelf'....for that is what it first took to 'have a reason'. i was not a good enough reason to 'go on' at that point in my life. In my own Path & Perception this is where "the ACT of submission" comes in. This was the first 'step towards surrender' in My Own Life...or would that be "Owning My Life"? hhmmm......

Through 'performing the acts of submission' i learned how to then "Truly" submit out of 'free will'. Through the patience and kindness and acceptance of Others i was then able to find the strength and belief in myself that my 'acts of submission' were a "Gift" to the One on the 'receiving' end of the 'submissive act'. From here i could move from the 'crawling stage' to taking my first steps into 'Walking in submission'...on my own two feet of my own free will.

This as well is no easy transition for the self...to "Believe OneSelf a Gift" to Others???...back to crawling we go!!..i don't wanna 'take stand' for mySelf...i am not worthy to be a Gift!! This is an internal struggle that goes on and on and on and catches up with Us at the most unexpected and 'in-opera-tune' times. (Ever watched "Phantom of The Opera"....:::::swoooooon::::....there is a

'familiar tune' that rings through for All of Us withIn that movie....be it the "Master or the slave"....take Your pick! We are Both of Them at one mOMent or anOther...again...take Your pic...or would that be "Paint Your Pic"..?)

One might ask how the Two are the same. Well...it is no easier a task for the "Master/Dominate" to 'think Him/HerSelf worthy' of 'making up the Will of anOther'. To be on the "Recieving End" of the "Gift of anOther"...One must surely possess a Great Amount of Self Love & Esteem for Self. And well...have We not been taught that this is a form of 'slavery' and that this is the worst form of 'abuse' One could possibly perform 'against' anOther? hhmmm.....

So We have been "Taught" that to wish to 'submit love' to anOther is a 'bad thing' (to keep it simple here)...and We have also 'been taught' that to 'receive a submission of love' is a 'bad thing'...to "Take" the Love of anOther..(even if it is being 'freely given'...or is agreed that You 'take it')....is a "bad thing".

Okay...so Yes..as One can see there are struggles to overcome with the Self & Ego to accept EITHER Side of this Coin. Looking at it from this perspective, there really is no "Dominance and submission"....but there IS "Surrender"....surrender to SELF and LOVE ...SELF LOVE. The way i percieve it, we go from 'crawling in submission'...to then 'walking in submission'....to then the 'desire of being a "slave to Love"...(...this process sounds strangely familiar...does it not?)

i think maybe this comes from having NOT felt Love for so long, or not knowing what Love is supposed to feel like...or not feeling 'worthy of Love'...

There is a certain 'Pride' in some way if someOne Loves and wants You so bad that They make You Their "Love Slave"...and in One's such Eye...there is nothing 'dirty or evil' about this...this is a "Prideful Position" and a Path that leads to a 'total stripping away of ego'...or again..it allows One to avoid 'being worthy of SELF Love..but we can allow OurSelf this if FORCED to....and it is a CHOSEN PATH by those that choose such a Path to Self Dis-Cover-Eye & Surrender.

Really, if One looks at this through another "window"...what are we as 'children', but Our Parents "Love Slave"? We are 'raised'...or "trained" as Our Parents wish Us to be...(in most cases)...rather than "Learning to Walk on Our Own"...or OF Our Own "Free Will". So, We usually end up finding a way or a Path that leads Us through this process yet again, once We "leave the nest".

i Believe that this is just an on-gong process that We go through until We are finally Truly Surrendering to SELF and LOVE on ALL Levels of Self We can reach...including...but not limited to...Those OutSide of Self.

One might ask just WHY One would choose such a "Path for Self" to travel down. i can only answer from my Own experience and perspective of course...which at THIS Present mOMent would be: Because i really do not know what other Path could/would take me 'deeper OR higher Into SELF''....Self Acceptance, Self Love, Self Surrender and The Service or Giving of MySelf & Love to Others.

i first have had to learn how to "Touch MySelf"...before "Touching Others". i have had to learn in "In's & Outs" of ME....before "Presenting MySelf to Others"....i have had to learn where my "Drive" comes from before "Others could drive me". But at the same time...it takes someOne to "Dance with" and "Play with" and "Act with" and "Perform for" in Order to make it a "Balanced Dance Lesson". One also needs "Dance Partners" to learn the dances with! And in order to do this...One must also "Surrender" to this need...which also means 'surrendering to Others"...TRICKY!!! Talk about "Betwixt & Between" and "the tip of the double edge sword"! So while You're 'acting' You're 'learning' and while You're 'learning' Your "acting'.....while You're 'submitting' You're 'dominating' and while You're 'dominating' Your 'submitting'.....and ALL the while...BOTH are "Surrendering"...be it to the "Will" of anOther...or the "Will" of Self...It is the "Surrender" to the "Will of Love".

i often have referred to this as "The Dance of Dominance and submission"...with the imagery of the "Infinity Symbol" racing through my minds eye. The Energies of Both flowing through riding high at times , riding low at times...and then 'meeting and merging and colliding' to flow on through there-after...the same but yet changed/transformed from the 'collision/ex-changing of powers/energies'. Flowing onward We are at or on a 'new level of self/reality'...on the same, yet somehow different Path...liken to that of a "Parrallel Self/Reality"...and in All Reality We are, because after such an experience, We have choices and knowledge and experience that We didn't have previously...we are now at the 'opposite end of the flow'...or 'other end of the flow'...after the 'meeting point'....and new "levels of surrender/love" to explore!!! This is, for me anyway, where "mOMentUM" comes in to play with Us also and We becOMe familiar with "What Drives Us"...What is TRUE to and withIN Us. And for me...this is where the lines of "Surrender and Love" become blurred and becOMe ONE flowing source of energy withIN Me....this is the Dance that showed ME the way to Surrendering to Love...Loving to Surrender....to LOVE...and It's flow is Infinity.

Well....i think this is where this thot dims for the time being. i certainly didn't expect all of that to come out!! LOL But wow....sure glad it did!

For Now....

~Bon Voyage!~

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The Shift Into “Higher/Deeper” Self/Service:

**The Service Oriented Heart Series Part 2**

By Mystic Priestess Lady LiL 

As the Universe is shifting and much of what We once thot of as 'Real' gets shattered or broken down and blows or washes away, many folks are left looking at Their “Empty Hands” wondering what just happened and what is left to 'hang onto' as everything else appears to be falling...including Self. Many are left to look in the Mirror once again in question of “Who Am I...and where do I go now?”

With so much dependency on the 'physical'...when the physical is no longer available or is falling apart before One's very eyes...where does that leave room for stability? Hopefully One is 'stable withIn Self' enough to continue forward through the dust & debris, picking up bits and pieces of what One would like to save and take along and leaving the rest behind, carrying a much 'Lighter Load” than before and able to percieve the Blessings of what is taking place. But this perception often takes some time to 'settle in' and as the dust is still smoldering about...so is Ones mind as We reach and search frantically for those 'bits & pieces' that have fallen away.

This is a good time to just STOP what We are doing and STILL OurSelf long enough to ask OurSelf: Just what exactly is it that We are frantically seeking and what are We going to do with “It” if/when We find It. And while were at it...ask OurSelf “Why?” do We 'need' this and exactly what 'stability' does 'It' bring Us if it can knock Us off Our rockers and be gone in the blink of an Eye? Is this then One's “True Source of Stability”....or is this part of the Illusion We have built for OurSelf?

Often times the sensation of “Fear” will reach Us first, and it is good to remember that FEAR is nothing but “False Expectations Appearing Real”. Times like these are the best times to review the Simple & Basic Foundation of Our Knowledge and Lessons already learned and place Our Trust in that instead of what We are frantically reaching for through the dust & debris. This would be the time to 'Return to Self' and BE that which We are Seeking. When We do this We then have the security of Self Knowledge that We do have control of the One thing that most important....SELF. And We don't have to be 'fearful' of what is to come or what don't We have to 'hang onto', We have OurSelf to hang onto...the only One/Thing that is 'there for You'...When the rest of the Illusions and Debris 'settles'.

If You Love Something...set it free:

In my own perception this saying can go for any'thing' and any'One'. It can range from Desires to Needs to Fantasies to People to Belief Systems to Personal belongings to 'aspects of Self' in Our Life and/or LifeStyle. If We never 'let them go'....how do we know if we will 'miss it' when it is gone? It could be something that We are hanging onto just because it 'keeps Us comfortable' or in Our 'familiar places'. But if We never take that risk or chance of 'letting go', then We will never know and could be just carrying this around because 'old habits die hard'....and nobody 'likes to feel uncomfortable'. The Old perception of 'UnComfortable' and “Change” is that it means something “bad”...but if One takes a minute to just STOP during this thot, feeling, sensation, and again present themselves with the above questions of:

Just what exactly is it that We are frantically seeking and what are We going to do with “It” if/when We find It. And while were at it...ask OurSelf “Why?” do We 'need' this and exactly what 'stability' does 'It' bring Us if it can knock Us off Our rockers and be gone in the blink of an Eye? Is this then One's “True Source of Stability”....or is this part of the Illusion We have built for OurSelf?

With the added questions of:

What IS the 'UnComfortable Feeling'? What is at the CORE of this?

Then again..One may find exactly what it is They are Seeking withIn the Self and find the Freedom IN “Letting Go”. Once One can view the benefits of walking amongst the debris without 'frantically seeking' for something to hang onto...One will also be able to experience the Peaceful Silence of the settling and through the Security In Self be able to be the Hand that someOne else frantically grabs onto in “Their” 'frantic search'.....an Ones Own opportunity to pass on that which They are Seeking.....The Self.

This is when “Service”  begins...

from the Heart...

from Love...

Freely Offered

Written by Lil

  10/2008
 

~In Peace, Love & Service Of~

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The Illusion of Lacking 

**The Service Oriented Heart Series Part 1**

By Mystic Priestess Lady LiL

     One of my favorite quotes to keep in my mind is: “Just because someone doesn't love you the way that you 'want' to be loved...doesn't mean that they don't love you.”

This can also be shifted to “Just because someOne doesn't Dominate/Support/Guide you the way that you want/wish/desire to be Dominated/Supported/Guided....doesn't mean they are not or do not Dominate/Support/Guide you”

i personally have found that it is in the times of what is 'seemingly' a lack there-of....that i usually learn the most about myself and my service/submission. This is usually due to the introspective time that i have been 'forced' (or so i think/percieve)...into. i also usually end up accessing some of the most creative energy within me, if i can get my perception shifted out of the 'negative' and into the 'positive' of this 'quiet and/or down time'.

If during a time it 'appears' the Domming/Guiding is being done 'wrong' or 'laking' then that is the BEST and most important time to look withIN and your perception of this time/event or situation that you are experiencing.....there is obviously some form of 'power play' or 'ego play' or 'shadow dancing' going on....or this perception wouldn't even be present in your mind/awareness. This form of thot represents control issues, lack of letting go/submission. In Dominating/Guiding/Supporting....there is no 'right or wrong'....this is all an illusion created by ones own perception of the situation/event and th SELF is the only one responsible for the perception and the only one that has control to shift this perception.

If a shift in perception can be found, this can be one of the greatest opportunities for us to access the core and deepest forms of service, self and submission, because we are then reaching withIN to the 'Natural/Authetic' self/slave and allowing the flow/energy/dance ItSelf to take form....rather than trying to direct or control the flow. With the natural flow taking over, we can then also learn, observe our self & Other and discover further then, what the natural flow/energy/dance might look/feel like......and then we also have more to create with when th time comes and 'play energy' picks back up.

If we can learn to relish these down times....rather than seeking and focusing on what we are 'missing/lacking'....then we may find that we are actually in abundance of what it is we THOT we were missing or lacking in afterall. Through the still and quiet times...is sometimes when we may find our submission/service is at it deepest and most passionate level.

Written by: Lil 9/2008

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Fighting Struggling

   In an e-mail,  someOne was talking about 'fighting/struggling' and the 'physical release' of fighting/struggling against something tangible. ie: ropes, cuffs etc...that is what is the BEST feeling for many of us 'submissives'. BUT....that form of release is not always available for us, so it is best not to get tooooo addicted and dependant on that form of release either!! THAT can be a HUGE tragedy!!! BUT...it is also one of the BEST ways of teaching self that it is ok to struggle and feel and succumb to the emo-shuns that we have 'shunned' from ourself for WAY too long!!
    But when that 'fight or flight' sensation rolls into one's body/mind...and the internal struggle begins...what are we to do??

Anyway...this was just some of  my thots:

~In Peace~

      *L* 

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Service & Disciplined Action in Your Personal and Spiritual Life

     Service is about giving what is wanted and needed to the people around us, not getting what we want. If we can love & serve the people around us, we can also love and serve our Higher Self/Higher Power. If we do not love & serve our self…then how can we love & serve another? In order to keep our attention and awareness within ourselves during difficult times, whether in a challenging conversation or during a major event in our life, we must have the self-discipline to manage our energies.

     This is where Disciplined Action comes in. Growing Spiritually or growing within our selves is a gift, but it is a gift that requires responsibility, discipline and balance. Disciplined Action is the act of keeping our awareness and energy inside and not reacting in a manner that is going to create tensions, in ourselves, or in those around us. This does not mean “stuffing” it or “sweeping it under the rug”, but maintaining and managing your energy properly. Not getting carried away or caught up in the dark or drama of the situation that you are faced with. Disciplined action is about maintaining a proper balance within, that allows you to flow with the cycles of life and the challenging moments that come with them. Both Service and Disciplined Action can be a very beneficial part of your growth in your personal life and also in your spiritual life. They are another aspect of learning to walk in balance towards your Path to Inner Peace.

     To be of service to yourself or to those around you, one must have discipline. Service is a disciplined action, just as disciplined action can also be a service to yourself or another, because it makes you a much more pleasant person to be around. You are in control of yourself, of your cravings, of your needs and wants and of your emotions and reactions to those around you. You have control over the energies within you. This is where your practices of Living in the Present Moment and Mindful Living serve as lessons for service and disciplined action. They keep your focus on the here and now, not the past or on the unknown future.

     Living in the Present moment, reminds us that what has happened in the past cannot be undone or changed, but we are in control of how we react to it, or handle the present moment that we are faced with. So how does one service yourself? You can begin by acknowledging your Whole Self, Mind, Body & Spirit. And when I speak of Spirit, I do not just mean “Spirituality”, I mean Your Spirit/Soul. If this involves Spirituality, then this just means that spirituality is part of your Soul-Food/Spirit-Food. Part of what it takes to keep your soul or spirit fed and alive. But it takes the Whole, Mind, Body and Spirit to be at your healthiest and prime self. This is all part of a service to yourself and to those around you. Focus is another Disciplined Action that can serve as a service.

     There are 5 elements that disrupt ones focus. Those 5 elements would be: Laziness, Forgetfulness, Lethargy & Excitement, Non-application and Over-application. Laziness leads you to not even wanting to lead a more focused life because it takes too much work. Forgetfulness leads to not remembering the object of focus. Lethargy & Excitement lead to interruptions in your focus. Non-Application arises when Lethargy or Excitement are present, and Over-application is when you keep applying the focus, even when the lethargy or excitement have faded.

     There are also 8 elements that can serve as a means for helping you to maintain a healthy focus. These 8 elements would be: 1) Faith: seeing the good qualities of maintaining focus. 2) Aspiration: seeking to attain good qualities and healthy focus 3) Effort: finding joy in maintaining a healthy focus & sticking with it. 4) Physical & mental pliancy: this is an effect of the effort itself. 5) Mindfulness: maintaining your focus. 6) Awareness: knowing that lethargy or excitement has arisen. <”Mindful Living”, “Living in the Present Moment”> 7) Application: practicing these 8 elements to help you maintain your healthy balance & focus. 8) Desisting from application: knowing when to relax your efforts and “let it go”.

     Through working with these 8 elements, you can eventually rid of the 5 elements that are disruptive to your focus. You can learn Disciplined Action and how to maintain your energies and balance when faced with difficult times or difficult people. You can learn how to control your cravings, needs, wants and emotions, by keeping your focus a healthy one.

     First and foremost, your main focus should be on keeping yourself healthy. If you are not healthy in Mind, Body and Spirit, then you cannot experience total and complete love and happiness, and if you have not experienced this, then you cannot give this to another person either. So serve/service yourself first, then you can be there to serve/service others in your life in a healthy and balanced manner.

      Another way of maintaining a healthy focus is to think about the disadvantages of a negative state of mind, or a pessimistic view on life. Learn to identify them from your personal experiences. Learn to recognize the good times, the positive states of mind and focus and think about the advantages of them, keep thinking about the advantages of the positive focus, how do you feel physically when you are more positive vs. how you feel physically when you have a negative state of mind? Then when you feel yourself slipping into the negative, start reminding yourself of the advantage of remaining positive and redirect your thoughts that way, learn to replace your negative thoughts with positive ones as soon as you recognize your negative coming out. If you continue to refocus and redirect yourself, then eventually this will become your more natural way of looking at life and living, rather than the old habit of living in pessimism and focusing on the negative.

    This again, is Disciplined Action, the self-discipline of redirecting your focus to a positive, healthy and balanced one. Service is an act that is present in your everyday life, from your job, to your kids, to your spouse, to yourself, it is unavoidable. It is in your job as you are serving to your boss, it is with your kids as you serve to fulfill their needs, it is with your spouse as your strive to make them happy. And through Disciplined Action you can learn to serve yourself and others in a much healthier and balanced manner and again, you are that much closer to walking your Path of Inner Peace.

© 2005 MoonlitMysticsm